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Dengan nama Allah, Maha Pengasih, Lagi Maha Penyayang

Dedaun yang ikut mengalir lembut
Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi

Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu takut mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada

Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kutrima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Bertemu..

untuk penutup tahun 2008, aku memberi diri aku sebijik hadiah. semoga tahun depan akan lebih bermakna

Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru!!! goodbye 2008, hola 2009!

(Japanese)
Kondo wa itsu aeru ka nante
Sonna kao shite yoku ierutte
Omotteta yo nande darou
Anytime shaberisugi no KY
Chirari miseru tsuyogari no I cry
Namida no kaouka wa dore kurai?
Watashi narini “ai saretai”
Afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimini aenai
Sonna ki ga surunda
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba miataranai
Watashi tabun uso demo ii no ni
“Ikanai de” mo ienai yo
Nigitteta te ga hanaretara
Kimi wa itsuka wasurechau no?
Watashi no koto
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba miataranai
Watashi tabun uso demo ii no ni
“Ikanai de” mo ienai yo.

(English)
What made me think
“How can you say that with a straight face?” when you asked, “When will we meet again”
Anytime you talk too much, I know you don’t get it.
For a moment, I see your bluff and I cry.
Do my tears even work on you?
I keep saying “I want to be loved”
in my own special way, but you still don’t get the hint.
I have this nagging feeling
that I’ll never see you again…
I wish I could tell you, but I can’t find the words.
Maybe I’d rather listen to you lie,
I can’t even say “Don’t leave me.”
When you let go of my hand, will you forget about me?
I wish I could tell you, but I can’t find the words.
Maybe I’d rather listen to you lie, I can’t even say “Don’t leave me…”

seriously.. im sick n tired of my life. fuck ah!
aku tatau hala tuju hidup aku.. aku hidup untuk apa?
manusia dicipta berpasangan.. tapi aku rasa aku tade pasangan kot
haih.. sume org cakap kat aku “rilex la.. nanti akan jumpe yang sesuai blablabla” ..sudah la wei.. aku dah penat la denga bende tu sume. if aku jumpe pon, confirm akan ade soalan “bleh ke aku menjage? layak ke aku?” duh.. kadang2 aku fedup ngan bende ni sume tapi.. hm. aku perlukan sumone yang slalu ade ngan aku, bleh jage aku, paham ape yang aku rase, tempat aku mengadu masalah.. yang bleh aku ckp “ni la awek aku”. hm.. nanti nanti.. bile nantinye aku pon tatau.. bile nak datang time tu pon aku tak pasti.. umur semakin meningkat.. bile lagi? takkan aku nak tunggu umur dah 30 baru nak kawen kot. bape taun je lagi wei.. bkannye lame sangat pon.. pejam celik pejam celik dah 30. sejak kebelakangan ni aku happy.. tapi aku tau tu sume hanye sementara.. aku sedar bende tu sume tapi still.. hm..
aku tatau la ape aku nak ckp lagi dah.. lenkali la aku sambung lagi. not in mood.

*i wish i could have u, i wish u were mine..
but i know its impossible.. so abaikan

sangatlah aku sedang kebosanan.. ketiadaan kesesiapaan.. hish.
oh btw, aku dah upload sume gamba baru di facebuk
nuff said, kebanyakkan korang dah tengok dan dah mengoment pon kot.. macam2 gamba ade.. pelik2 sungguh.. tapi itulah die kenangan antara kita

thanks to penyumbang wajah dan body utama utk gamba2 tu:
mr wan jinggo, mr aphesz and ms gzalifah.. i luv u guys. aku lesbian oke, bkan gay!

tata.. esok2 la aku sambung lagi sebab aku dah tatau nak tulis ape. hahahaha
MERRY XMAS & A HAPPY NUYEAR!! x0×0x0×0

If love was a bird then we wouldn’t have our wings
If love was the sky we’d be blue
If love was a choir, U and I could never sing
Cause love isn’t for me and U
If love was an Oscar, U and I could never win
Cause we could never act out our parts
If love is the bible, then we are lost in sin
Because it’s not in our hearts

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live ur life
And I’ll live mine
Baby u’ll do well
And I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off separated..

If love was a fire then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light then we’re lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold
If love was a sport, we’re not on the same team
U and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean, baby we are just a stream
Cause love isn’t for me and U

Why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live ur life
And I’ll live mine
Baby u’ll do well
I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off separated..

Girl I know we had some good times
It’s sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl U know I love U
I can’t deny
Can’t say we didn’t try to make it work for U and I

I know it hurts so much
But it’s best for us
Somewhere along this windy road, we lost the trust
So I walk away, so U don’t have to see me cry
It’s killing me so, why don’t U go

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live ur life
And I’ll live mine
Baby u’ll do well
And I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off separated..

I’m sorry we didn’t make it.

I’m telling the world
Here and now
That I’m gonna love you and love you
I take this vow yeeaah
You captured my heart
So long ago
Still there are some critical things
That you should know

Do I give all I am
To be now and forever you man
Do I take you to be
Without question the woman for me
Do I promise you
I do
Do I promise you
I do, I do

This love has been worth waiting for
Cause love doesn’t matter to me
If it’s not yours
As we become one
Through and through
I dedicate all my life
To loving you

Do I give all I am
To be now and forever you man
Do I take you to be
Without question the woman for me
Do I promise you
I do
Do I promise you
I do, I do

To have and to hold
While passions unfold
I promise a life you won’t regret
For better or worse
No one can reverse the way that I’ve felt since we met and
You ain’t seen nothing yet

Do do I give all I am
To be now and forever your man
Do I take you to be
With out question the woman for me
Do do I swear all my life
We’ll be happy as husband and wife
Do I promise you
Do I promise you
Do I promise you
I do
Do I promise you
I do, I do
I do

I’m telling I’m telling I’m telling I’m telling I’m telling the world
Telling the world
I do
I
I do I do
I do
I do
Do I
I do baby
I’m gonna marry you
I’m gonna make you my wife
I do..

Baby let’s, let’s stay together
Loving you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

Why somebody, why people break up
Turn around and make up
I just can’t see
You’d never do that to me

Let’s, let’s stay together
Loving you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

Let’s, let’s stay together
Loving you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

Let’s stay together..

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn’t think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me that I can’t explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you

I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I’m wasting away
I know I’ll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you